I die alittle each day, fighting to survive...

Another day I live to be made a fool of! Thanks to the media, who have been 'in bed' with the investigating police. As others have been used, lead to believe that they are assisting the police, via broadcast feeds. This I suppose is to seek information. However, I am a victim of hate-monging police corruption so 'seeking information' is not quite right. Inciting anxiety is correct! A few years ago the A&E channel did a documentary of a form of police psychology designed to make a person become paranoid. I have lived in Ontario for one year now. I left British Columbia Feb.'07... January 27th'07, I awoke with my body sexually assaulted. Some of you would know this as I posted my thoughts in writing, on my wall in my living room, as my home had been under video surveillance for 10 years! When word on the street was that my life was being played out like a soap opera on the Internet. So when I talked about authorities drugging and raping me after I go to bed at night, viewers saw this as a drama! NOT! So, I left BC after a news announcement that a BC police officers was arrested for being involved in child pornography. INVOLVED, not down loading, not viewing, INVOLVED! To this day I haven't heard any more on this, as that seems to be the norm. This officer was arrested January 27th.'07! WTF! This wasn't new news to the investigating authorities as they had in their possession, DVD's of drug raped victims, which included children and one white woman with long dark hair! I packed a small back pack and left. In Ontario the media has been used too. One incident on air, a woman talked about 'how can anyone abandoned their cat'? This was inciting anxiety, as I left my beloved cat of 12 years behind in BC, I cry as I recall this, but I know my neighbours of seven years would take good care of her. Someone, I believe was an informant for CSIS told me that they were raping my cat too!? Another time on air in the last 12 months, was after I become Internet friendly. I couldn't use the library back home, because I was under surveillance 24/7. When I would go to the library, usually after when the evening news was blocked from my cable. I would go to read the news papers to learn about myself. IE: crime committed against me. Anyway, again on air, in Ontario, a woman talked about 'how a person is using a school friends name on a blog page and the user is a porn actor'! NOT! I did use a similar (school) friends name, after I couldn't get into my blog page?! TODAY, a media person whom I thought was an honorable person, had the chance to incite hope, but choose to incite anxiety! AGAIN! I suppose this is to deter me from watching & listening to current events. I guess 'they' like to keep their manufactured victims uninformed. Maybe the media would like me to go away, since they sold their testimonies to the very people committing the crimes! I WOULD LOVE TO GO AWAY, PERMANENTLY! Another time, here in Ontario, I listen to programed music on line, my music choice is R&B and Gospel rock music, others on line can send songs to your feed. One day I had hate songs sent to me, so what. But, why do I have to be continually harassed, and forced to live with a bastardized reputation, hated and sought after by a large network of hate-monging cops? AND ALIENATED FROM SOCIETY! Do I want to be reintegrated back into this society, which has stood by for the past 14 longsuffering years, where no one reaches out, except to hit the down load button? All the anti-psychotic meds, won't change the facts, I AM A MANUFACTURED VICTIM, AND, I'm not the only one who will die fighting to survive this !!!