Don't save me... SAVE YOURSELF !

As you watch me live and die in forced pain and poverty, I cry out to the Lord why me? Why, must I live such an undesired life? My soul purpose in life, like most other gifted songwriters, from a young age all I've ever wanted to do in this life is share life, love and laughter. Laughter being my weakest gift, but I do share in a joyful and strong spirit! As I have been forced into alienation by a rogue government that prefers to drug, rape and exploit me for their all mighty buck. I feel ripped off from knowing such lovely people of God, and sharing and rejoying with others. I have done more soul searching and I clearly see that people choose not to live by the love of God.? People are choosing not to be Of God!? Why? I recall days ago when my fathers was alive he told me that I am not permitted to talk about Jesus, when I came for a visit!? My dad an agnostic, due to ignorance, I figure couldn't allow himself to be Of God, because he loved the ladies and didn't want to give up his lifestyle. Silly fool, I'll called him. Nothing, no one, or any kind of life style can stop someone from acknowledging and accepting that God and His Son & Holy Spirit are the Divine Creators of Heaven and earth! Which by the way, has been given to us so abundantly! No one, can stop you from believing in a higher level of consciousness regardless of their lifestyle. One may come to desire change as they grow spiritually, God Bless. So to be aware that one chooses not to be of God, is sad. God is love, justice, happiness. To be aware and NOT acknowledge human compassion is quite devastating for the future. Especially those who take an oath to serve and protect, govern and those who profess to be Of God. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? Get out of public service, NOW! As I have been alienated from the international community, I rarely have a chance to talk with people. I can't get past hello without seeing fear in their eyes, like I'm worse then the black plague!? I figure, I have lead many people to the Lord, while seeking political asylum. On first meeting with many authoritians and advocates their first duty is to serve. After that, denial of services. This is what I have faced for over a decade. Firstly, they had the chance to show human compassion with their public service job. Then with denial of services, they denied themselves to be themselves or of human compassion and reach out to these extraordinary circumstances. You have denied yourself to God, to be Of God! You people are choosing not to be Of God or show human compassion!? I haven't fail at leading people to God. I feel that every time I go to someone with my problem, it is for your benefit. That you reach out and live up to what you profess and stand for, and what you're afraid to accept! YOU CHOOSE NOT! * 'Forgive them Father, as they know what they do! Your people don't want to live by your love, and I can't get past hello. Thankful to be called by You. Hallelujah, You Reign'.*