Good Friday To All

I sure am looking forward to the next realm of my spiritual being. God knows how much fun I'm having down here,and He seems to be in no ones hurry to beam us up. One of my favorite songs of the past is, Simple Minds,'Sanctify Yourself'-" won't you,come back down here and show us the way"... Christ is a mighty fine example of love, fairness and acceptance. He also showed us how to love God with simple prayers of thanksgiving. And, forgiveness! Thanks be to Christ for pleading our case to God. I keep screwing up with some loose connections in my head(right side to be exact). Forgivance is a long forgiving emotion I perpetually struggle through, with circumstances beyond my control, and apparently beyond the worlds control too? What else could be the reason for the whole world to watch me being persecuted,with NO government(s)intervention!? No neighbour intervention...? I do feel neighbourly love which is why I keep coming back looking for forgiveness after I pop a gasket,burn a few electrodes, put myself closer to a stroke of mental health. I still love humanity and all the numb nuts that go with wing nuts,and I include myself here. Do I assume I'm not worth two shakes of a lambs tail because I know not how to be acceptances in this world? I like myself, with all my short comings. God loves me too, I know this not just because the Bible tells me so a(another favorite song),but because of knowing Gods love is real. And with Gods forgiveness I am able to go on. I accept myself as a child of God, and where is there is acceptance, there is love and strenght comes from His love which helps me to rise up, no matter how many holes I fall into. Or as many ulcers I self in flick. If I just didn`t have to keep pleaing for acceptance, some basic human rights, some respect and privacy, alittle fairness on earth still to this day! Perfection isn't a prerequisite to God's kingdom, but here on this planet, I'll say yes. Forgive me, for I am not like no other. I do like you, and with all your short comings too. I just need to be me. I'm burning up energy wondering why I can't relate to people. Why I get to suffer, and at the hands of others. I didn't start any war. I'm mad as heck for not knowing how to handle myself better, how to keep friends closer and how to put the enemy out of business! Thankfully I do know this, that everyday is a new day to make it all better. I know no other way but through the Son of God. I pray for the return of God on this Holy day, and every day.