Where's The Force???

W.T.F ... That's what I have to say about this 'forced insanity', witnessed by too many people who claim to be good Samaritans! After reading Paul Harris' 'christian meditation', I have never wondered from my faithful calling from God. Whether theses who have been illegally survailing/voyuring my every move, for the past decade! 'They' can't get my soul! How that must piss some off. I'm sure 'they' love it, when I have a melt down! I realize when I have a melt down it comes after I've been feeling good, positive and hopeful about my future. Being reintegrates into society after too many years a manufactured victim. Sponding from a falsified police record, after I made a formal complaint! These crash and melt down seems to be familiar to what a drug addict goes through with, withdrawal. After the high they have no other fix to keep them up. After I get feeling positive about the Canadian justice system, I then get depressed. Realizing my reality! No one to reach out to, talk with, report crime to,etc... And that I am forced into alienation with a bastardized reputation with NO HELP from my country, within my country! I am tired of apologizing to people I reach out to, who don't reach back, at least not to me? Maybe, if I go to Afghanistan the Canadian Embassy would inter vine? Or maybe Amnesty International? Or British Columbia's Civil Liberties??? Here in Canada, I can't get help from any body of human rights to do their job for me. WHY? Well my educated guess is the Federal government! I was told 4 years ago by my now former, (who wasn't re-elected) member of Parliament 'that as long as there is an on going RCMP investigation, "I can't do anything for you."' Well, one can watch me suffer! Plus, download any sex-crimes that happen to me after I go to sleep! This is the Canada that I know. The media gets to be like the government, "can't discuss whats before the courts","it's a matter of national security"! This is all I have heard for over 8 years. It doesn't matter if authorities drug and rape for the sake of an investigation (takeover of a criminal Enterprise) and violate all my charter of rights? Here's a thought. If authorities want to use sex as a weapon,"HIRE SEX-TRADE WORKERS"!!! What about a lawyer? Well, what about lawyers? I don't have one hundred thousand dollars to retain one! Theses witnesses seem to have sold their evidence, to the very people who are responsible for these inhumane activities! The fact that every apartment I live in, has been illegally broadcast over the Internet! With my falsified police record says 'that is her profession,' a 'camera sex-trade worker'! WTF!!! I'm not entitled to know of my record, which leaves me defenceless to organized crimes of rape, gross exploitation and other hate crimes? Which is a multi-billion dollar criminal Enterprise! So all these high and lows, what can I do? I re found a past love for meditation/tai chi, maybe it's not too late, to save some peace of mind. I guess I could delete my mind with taking up smoking crack? If I were a drug addict I would qualify for government funded rehab! If I were to turn to stealing, and get charged, I would qualify for government funded legal aide! If I were a suspected terrorist, I would qualify for a 'special advocate'... But as a manufactured victim? The difference between someone who is born again, and someone who isn't. Is that when you are born again, God is on your side! So, all is fair! ISN'T IT? I really should leave this country, deep down I know I'm hurting myself by remaining In Canada.